I realize that at this time you have a lot on your mind,
But today I felt lonely just remembering you.
I realized today that I never even told you,
That my favorite candy is dark pomegranate chocolate,
Or chocolate with peanut butter too.
I thought this was important because now I’ve come to see,
That I never even told you,
Told you what made me.
When I was young I always thought you were the perfect mum.
And I punched a kid who said that his mum was better than you.
I thought that you were a superman,
And my heart broke the first time I saw you cry.
I realize I never told you the reason that I dance,
I realize that it was I who never have you a chance.
But let me tell you a story,
A tale of long ago,
Or not so long ago,
Because for you it was just a few short years.
Way back when you and Dad became my heroes.
I always watched you during school,
And I knew that you would never stop.
Because schooling every child is an endless task.
But I only wanted you to see my ‘drawlings’,
I wanted you to say good job,
But I knew that you were busy,
I would try later.
When I was little everyone was loud and bigger too,
So I looked at their work and decided I could do double their work,
And do it better too.
I worked to ep\\perfect my letters, shapes, and sounds,
I heard seth say that the Hobbit was the hardest around.
So it was then my goal to read that masterpiece,
And show you that I could be,
That I could be just as loud,
But loud in a way that was me.
I know I never told you why I worked so hard.
It was because I wanted to grow up as smart as you.
And when I saw Tessy going to her dance,
I knew that this was it,
Maybe this was my chance.
And when I saw that you eat to dance, to dace with Tess,
I thought that maybe if I
got good enough,
Maybe you would dance with me too.
So I asked and asked until you enrolled me in Ballet.
And I knew that you had danced and wore the slippers too,
So i vowed that I would grow to be,
Just as cool as you.
And I realize I never told you the reason that I tried,
And I never told you that thi summer you missed my performance,
I cried and cried and cried because I never had told you,
That the reason why I dance,
I dance because of you.
I always knew I loved it,
But you said it wasn’t safe,
But why, I thought,
Isn’t it you who taught me to pursue excellence?
Why couldn’t I pursue it? I couldn’t figure it out.
How something you love could be dangerous.
But I finally found my words,
and my words,
onto a page,
And I can finally tell you
You are the reason I am saved.
I wanted to learn Piano because you taught it to me,
I wished I could sing because you sang.
I finally became what I knew you to be
I learned to work, learn, speak, act, dance, and even debate.
But its time that I told you,
The reason I tried
Was so I could be like you.
I want to be strong, wise, vibrantly alive,
Beautiful, and smart too!
A leader and a teacher,
A wonder and a thinker,
I wish that I was like you!
Any problems I had,
I suffered through silent,
And I thought that you must see.
But I want you to know,
That I love you so,
You are the reason that I am me!
I want you to know,
That I will always be the crazy, loud one.
But I want you to know,
That the reason I dance,
The reason I dance,
I love you, Mommy.